CVs are funny things, they are. While I thought I had left them long in my dust, the season for Canada Council grants has arrived, and along with it the requirement that you take the time and define your life in print, a carefully choreographed ordering of life events that strangers can examine and decide if you are the real deal.
It’s a painful, arduous process, not least because I’ve spent the last decade or so studiously trying to avoid being accountable to anyone but a few close family and friends, and millions of needy strangers on the other side of the globe. Sadly, in terms of the greater Canadian society I’ve felt the need to flip the bird and go my own way.
I’m starting to understand something, or at least I think I am. I’m trying to understand aging, and the effects I feel in myself and have witnessed in others. We’ve all known that as you age you have less energy as your metabolism slows down. What I’ve seen however, is that the older you get it’s way more than simply a loss of strength, oomph, and harder to get up in the morning. A whole host of things becomes more difficult, and even people’s psychology can change.
I should’ve seen it coming. After all, when you go on a significant trip with an almost 70-year-old boat on its original, albeit rebuilt engine, you know you will have fun.
To be honest, I probably could have avoided the issues, but after two months of working on the boat I just wanted to get out and enjoy her for a change. She hadn’t given us too many problems so I thought I had things in hand. The fuel system problems I was sure I had beaten by replacing the tank and fuel lines and rebuilding the carb.
There were other potential trouble spots of course, but sometimes you just have to head out anyway and trust to providence and your own wits to get you there. Sometimes it works, some times it doesn’t. I’ve become pretty cocksure about my abilities to pull my chestnuts out of the fire when shit goes sideways, and it only just occurred to me that I might have gotten a little too complacent in that regard.