So let me divert from my normal ramblings and just let me bitch. Not two months ago I bought a 2004 Jetta TDI station wagon. I bought it very cheap as it had a blown head and was many miles away. Looking for adventure, we purchased an entirely new drive train with far fewer kilometres (<200k vs 300k) and did an entire engine/tranny swap where the car had originally broken down. Read the whole story here.
Funny how it works: feeling stuck, despairing, and so predictably just say fuck it and give up. And of course that starts the process rolling. I guess I should have anticipated that, as I’ve experienced it so many times.
Letting go sounds easy, but it never is. I would argue that most of us just don’t know how to do it, as it’s not something we are often called upon to do; society generally exhorts us to hold on, never give in, don’t be weak. Surrender is for sissies and losers.
And yet, as so often the case, when we give up fighting, we free ourselves.
After 8 years of blogging, I’m wondering if it isn’t time to shut loose moorings down. It’s a popular blog, But that’s a long time participating in one-way discourse, and I feel in somewhat of a rut. I’ve been living a certain kind of life for almost a decade now, and I’m feel more than a little restless. My original intent for this blog was to share what I’ve learned in a life of exploration and experimentation, with the idea that some may be inspired or reassured. I hope I succeeded in some small way.