I was speaking to a dear, wise friend, and with his gentle encouragement I remembered what I already knew: I was my own worst enemy, and the key here is in the I.
I’m not sure why, perhaps the intense flow of circumstance, but I had pretty much abandoned my spiritual self to deal with external events. Stuff “out there” needed doing and so my focus became out there as well. The problem with becoming externalized to deal with external situations, is that once we leave the place of spirit, once we leave the internal locus of being, ego takes over and ego is an extremely disturbing force.
I have to talk about this. Like most British Columbians I was looking to a new government this morning, and the frustration about what came about cannot be overstated. Let me be clear: the Liberal Party in BC has amassed a vast list of scandals and wrongdoing, and has shown itself to be very corrupt. I could list them here (they are easy to find online) but what would be the point? The information is there, but the citizens of BC didn’t care. Let me qualify that: the citizens who bothered to vote.
It’s unofficially official, I’m depressed. Not unhappy, but clinically depressed. Just moderately so, and so I have some thinking to do about which treatment route to take, if any. In my case the depression is situational and so will be passing either way, at least that’s the hope. It’s not at all surprising given everything that’s happened in the last 6 months.
I’ve been doing some research online and reading some blogs, and was very surprised to read one person’s comment about depression being another “white people’s problem.” The point this individual was trying to make was that if you are well housed, fed, clothed and have your health, you have absolutely nothing to be depressed about, given the living conditions of most people around the world.